New Book “My Life For Your Life” by Clarke Paris

Clarke Paris the creator of the documentary film and training seminar “The Pain Behind The Badge” has just released his first book entitled “My Life For Your Life”.

My Life For Your Life is the first book to ever address police suicide on such a personal platform.

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This book will definitely have an impact on all who read it.

With a synopsis of the author’s career and the struggles he and his family endured as a result of his chosen profession, a chapter written by his wife giving her perspective of that career, and a chapter by David Joseph, a respected psychologist, readers are somewhat prepared when they begin to read about ‘Our Heroes’.

‘Our Heroes’ are 8 featured police officers who took their own lives. Each one of the officers are portrayed as the amazing human beings they were and it is a complete waste and disappointment that they are not with us today.

The most heart wrenching portions of this book however, are the letters from the officers’ loved ones. Letters were written to each officer after their death. Questions like “Why”, “What were you thinking”, “Why didn’t you talk to me”, and “Was it really that hard to ask for help?” are asked and of course, will never be answered by the one they are asking.

My Life For Your Life not only tells a story, but explains to police officers,…  military personnel, supervisors, subordinates, friends, family, and loved ones how America’s heroes think, as well as provides answers to struggling cops and military personnel. You will laugh, you will cry, and you will undoubtedly have a much better understanding of why these brave men and women fail to accept the help that is provided for them.

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“…this book is the very best we have to give on this vital topic.”
— Lt. Col. Dave Grossman, U.S. Army (Ret.) Owner/Director, Killology Research Group

“This book is a must read through the very last chapter. Excellent!”
—Bernie Homme Former Police Chief

“…a must read for all current and retired heroes.”
—Sergeant Christian Dobratz (Ret.) Assistant Professor University of Minnesota Mankato

“This book provides us answers for today, that will open the door of solutions for all our tomorrows!
—Robert E. Douglas, Jr. Executive Director National Police Suicide Foundation, Inc.

Clarke Paris is a military veteran as well as a 26 year veteran of the Las Vegas Metropolitan Police Department. He received the Police Officer of the Year Award and in 2008 was honored by the International Police Association for his contributions to police work via his program ‘The Pain Behind The Badge’ through which Clarke has spoken to more than 10,000 police officers nation wide on the topic of police stress & suicide. In 2008 he created and produced, in conjunction with 100 Watt Productions, the award winning documentary Film on Police Stress and Suicide ‘The Pain Behind The Badge.’

Tracie Paris has been a Registered Nurse for the past 27 years.  She has worked as a Trauma/ER Nurse, Outpatient Surgery Nurse and Charge Nurse. In 2006 she was honored as ‘Nurse of the Year’. Clarke and Tracie have traveled the nation presenting The Pain Behind The Badge to thousands of police officers, military personnel, and their spouses. Clarke and Tracie were involved in recovery and training of personnel assigned to VA Tech PD after the 33 student massacre as well as Lakewood Police Department Personnel after that agency’s four officers were murdered as they sat in a coffee shop in November, 2009.

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You can also learn more about Clarke and his work in our CopsAlive interview by CLICKING HERE.

To download a PDF flyer about his book CLICK HERE. was founded to provide information and strategies to help police officers successfully survive their careers.  We help law enforcement officers and their agencies prepare for the risks that threaten their existence.

We do this by Helping Law Enforcement professionals plan for happy, healthy and successful lives on the job and beyond.  We think the best strategy is for each officer to create a tactical plan for their own life and career.

The Law Enforcement Survival Institute (LESI) works with individuals and organizations to help them create and sustain success in their lives and careers as law enforcement professionals.  It is the primary goal of The Law Enforcement Survival Institute to become the preeminent source for training, resources and information about how to create and sustain a happy, healthy and successful life and career while providing superior law enforcement service to your community.

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About Editor

John Marx was a Police Officer for twenty-three years and served as a Hostage Negotiator for nineteen of those years. He worked as a patrol officer, media liaison officer, crime prevention officer and burglary detective. Also during his career he served as administrator of his city's Community Oriented Governance initiative through the police department's Community Policing project. Today John combines his skills to consult with businesses about improving both their security and their customer service programs. John retired from law enforcement in 2002. When one of his friends, also a former police officer, committed suicide at age 38, John was devastated and began researching the problems that stress creates for police officers. He decided he needed to do something to help change those problems and he wanted to give something back to the profession that gave him so much. He started a project that has evolved into Put simply, the mission of CopsAlive is to save the lives of those who save lives! gathers information, strategies and tools to help law enforcement professionals plan for happy, healthy and successful careers, relationships and lives.
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  1. Hello Chief,

    Thank you for your comments. Clarke and Tracie’s program is excellent and the new book is fantastic. I’m glad that he has been able to help your department and I’m very sorry that you lost an officer to suicide. This is a problem that every agency needs to prepare for and most think that it will never happen to them.

  2. Chief John Pritchard

    The “Pain Behind the Badge” training program and Mr. Paris’ new book have been tremendous sources of strength and support for our agency.

  3. Chief John Pritchard

    Three of our officers attended Clarke Paris’s “Pain Behind the Badge” seminar several years ago in Kansas. It was fantastic! Sadly in 2009, one of our officers committed suicide. Clarke’s new book, “My Life for Your Life” was a great one that honored officers who have taken their own life and has helped the families and friends with the healing process although the pain of the loss will never entirely go away. Thank you for the help you have provided to many people over the years.

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